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Alex’s birthday!

Failed with his present. :|

Well, I’ll just tell him sorry and give him some cash D:

My day was ruined already though.

Some fucking bitch you are.

I’m sick of dealing of the same shit.

It’s just the same fucking routine all the time.

I don’t wanna to hear your bullshit.

I need something to happen so I can break out of this monotonous routine of everyday life.

I have a horrible craving for sushi right now

Hanabi rolls sound delicious right now..

Somebody bring me sushi!

Life

works in mysterious ways.

It’s a shame so many things have to change.

Nothing is ever going to stay the same.

Maybe even one day McDonalds is going to be a little bit healthier.

But that’s wishful thinking.

Change usually occurs when you do not want it to.

Relationships always change too.

Cigarettes

Every morning I am awakened by cold penetrating my blanket.

I go outside and my only company is you.

All my problems just disappear when I’m with you.

How can you do so much for me?

I can not do without you; I need you.

You are slowly killing me from the inside.

I can not leave you though.

You are there for me like no other.

When my lips touch you and the flame burns you,

You slowly disappear.

I am afraid I must learn to do without you for the rest of the day..

Another day

Another day passes me by.

I do not want to think about the future at all.

What if I just end up dying tomorrow?

What if I get some disease that will consume me and my family?

Well, all I know is that I should enjoy my life.

I don’t know what’s going to happen to me the next day or the next 5 minutes.

Life is beautiful, it is such a shame we were all born to die.

Writing a goodbye..

I never knew it was this hard.

Who would have thought that I would end up crying?

My relationship

It was an amazing year and a half.

I won’t regret anything.

I’ve enjoyed every moment with you.

I just feel like everything that we had, it’s all going to disappear.

Well, I guess that’s life for you.

I’ll never forget all those adventures we’ve had together.

The things we have done together..

You were everything to me.

But it’s just not going to work out.

It’s surprising how much I care for you and love you.

But I guess it’s time to move on if you’re ALWAYS going to get mad at me for every minuscule thing I do.

Music

Lately, music has been determining the kind of mood I have been in.

Last year, I stopped listening to music and I just don’t know why.

It’s amazing how 3 minutes can be filled with such meaning.

It’s also amazing how instrumentals can say so much without words.

Music is one of the best things ever invented.

People from different cultures can communicate through music.

I don’t think I can put up with it anymore

I’m going to have to end it.

I can’t be a scapegoat forever.

I treat you so well. Why do I have to get hurt every single day?

You’ve been cranky every single day.

This is becoming out of hand

I’m done.

Tomorrow..

I have class with that perfect girl, the one I imagine sometimes

I know that I can’t bring myself to talk to her

I am just too timid and I lack self-esteem

Who knows what’s going to happen?

I don’t know, but I know that I can not bring myself to speak to her.

Well, GG lululul

The one

Who exactly is the one?

Is he/she going to magically appear out of nowhere?

Do I have enough courage to speak to her?

These are questions we all ask ourselves.

Do you think your significant is the one?

Imagine yourself with he/she 10 - 20 years from now.

I have attempted to imagine my life 10 - 20 years from now with her.

I just don’t see it.

We’ve been through so much though. She just isn’t the one.

I can’t break her heart. I just can’t bring myself to do it.

What do I do?